Saturday, December 22, 2007
What you are is what you are,you cant change that.GUess WHAT?!My sister gave me my first tight slap on my left cheek.Rude much,I couldnt care less.Even if she sees this,Give me another one slap then. Whether you are on whose side,I am not going to have the intention of FORGIVING so its like WHATEVER..
yahaha..Suddenly my left cheek got a bit warmer than my right.Today is RAINING,suddenly I want to cry too..arrgh,WHAT CRAP!
tODAY i WENT TO bUGIS WITH MY COUSINS,and That bitch too.Bought a candy machine and a crocs(thats what I call it).Total cost me like 8.40 bucks,no ques and then dad sended me home..Pretty boring life that I lead.=_=
Intend to change all my posts cause they are all crap..like Liking asei WHICH I DONT and other things like fishie.Oh right,my uncle from NZ is coming on this monday,whether you beleve it or not,I am writing it.
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8:28 PM
Friday, December 21, 2007
You Reap what you Sow.Too much Tears had layed on the ground,my mother was standing in front of me and yap yap yap..Yup much that it had formed a lake?!ha!almost sounded like literature.but yeah,now become so outdated in the shelf..And then again,I had to do a review and only can do in english and become so darn emo sian.So does not fit in my closet!I tried becoming like someone and ended up losing my way of life that everyone hated me.
It was pretty sttupid ut I couldnt care much and I did not want to even think about it so it is like totally over..Help much and smile more okay?Then I have the strength to stand.Thank you:)
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12:46 PM
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
I am completely tired;have to wash the bips and keep in the safe box for ..um..next year when school reopens.Miss school so muchS!oh,2 more weeks then school can reopen..come on this is killing me!!!
sigh..truly detestable of me..got training at scgs then play 4 quarter game with them,we lost but it is okay.. we will catch up with them soon enough,I guess,haha.I managed to tapped the ball and defence well,priya also can shoot now,thats great!work hard,team!Debra also work quite hard as centre and defence and pricilla,ruoyu and Lixin never come..Dont know why..
Read my lit book and it is quite interesting,I still have not done my china homework..sigh..oh help?!=_=
Feeling really really bored that i cannot take it!!Can like someone come and ask me out on a date or something???!How boring can this be?
I bet every one will be surprised at me espically cause i had cut my hair short and they will start asking questions...busy year,that would be FATANSIC!!! er..I think I spelled it wrongly..my english totally sucks!
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8:51 PM
Saturday, December 1, 2007
I cut my hair today,okay lah..not so bad and it is really SHORT soo..I am kinda nervous on seeing or going out.I wanted it to be short so I dont have to tie my hair cause tieing my hair is one of my not-favourite hobbies,so get it over with.Much cooler,not so heavy too.
overall it is nice...so wish me luck!
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5:00 PM
Thursday, November 29, 2007
back for now,I guess.tomolo go escape theme park with netball gang.today have netball training,coach never come today.I have seemed to deproved a lot and I bought a lot of clothes in hk cool clothes like vests and long sleeves t-shirts...happy enough.
Stuck in the rain..
waiting for you to come..
thought you will be here.
but I never hated you,
maybe cause it is love,
my love for you.
ah...this sound so emo,how pathetily stupid.Am I really that happy?tell me..what is the real happiness,is it all about smiling and never cries??I hate it like that,I dont understand why.Am I just a toy to you?WHY?!WHY?!WHY?!help me...
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5:49 PM
Monday, November 26, 2007
Its good to be back in the west life,been to Hk and beijing nanjing.My fligght to singapore was supposed to be 8.3o but it was delayed up till 1opm then I reached home at 3in the morning???!yawn...darn sleepy..help me pls.
I supposed the new skin is coming out soon so I am waiting..
I am in vain for it..
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3:38 PM
Monday, November 19, 2007
nice to be back,I am just free today and unusually tired+sleepy..yawn.Tmolo got training and its a friendly match with scgs and regent sec.tough for me since I had been not playing and skipped training and I am going to sit on the bench then,I have bought the first class ticket there.sigh..I want to play!!JIa you me.
I had fun in china.Camped at one of my tour mates room at the last day before I came back and some of them wre like snoring so loudly that i cant sleep..wish me luck on tomolo!
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9:14 PM
Friday, November 9, 2007
oh my god..!!I am leaving soon for china,which is tomorrow,will miss everyone!
I will work extra hard when I come back with training,revision..sigh...I feel so bored,someone pls ask me out,but not on the days that I am not free.I am now ssoo a bai chi,stupid me..
Help MEE!!
haha..now dada and momo are quite proud of me cause i did pass everything,+I have work quite hard too,eventhough I know that I did not give it my best shot.I am forgetting Fishie,he is no longer a very impotant person to me,I am happy with my life ..thank you!
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12:23 PM
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
now then have the time for blog..busy upgrading myself in maplestory and training+packing for china and my new books for next year..woah,ssoo busy,oh dear!help me!
I am leaving for china in 4 days time for a week and going to hong kong after 3 days I come back,I am so scarced that I might get plane sick,going to china for the study of chinese..
sigh..still must not give up!hee-wish me luck!
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12:57 PM
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Nowadays,I am getting so lazy that i cant be bothered to update,sound so selfish of me..
Having promoted to sec 2e1 next year and thats good news!!
I am kinda falling apart with my shedule like coping with my cca and my studies..sigh,I cannot give up can I?
TOP 34 IN THE LEVEL FOR SEC 1!!
still remain in 14 position in class.
I am really improving in my subjects,thats great!
now all I have to do is to complete my holiday assignments..which is definitely bad..
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8:38 PM
Thursday, October 18, 2007
hehe..this picture darn CUTEand MEANINGFUL,I like it so much,heh~sometimes loving someone isnt as easy as you think it is and fighting for it too,I really love someone before to be frank byt we did not stead lah obviously and in the end, someone confessed my feelings to him and we left.I cried everyday,heh,I felt depressed and upset,thats why I yearned for fishie to accept me too..
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9:48 PM
yay,everyone so darn happy cause exams are over and some are not ssoo please with their results but not me,I passed everything including lit and geo
math~74
geo~74
english~55
science~63.5
mother tongue~59
home econs~57
literature~62
Art~78
Although it is not very good grades but I am still happy and now I have improved ,plus on monday I am going out because it is my birthday,22 october.
May or may not be in the same class as fishie,but i dont blame it cause its fate.
today had netball traing,we did our running,ball works,shuttles,timing,suicide.haha..It is not sucide,you know,that death kind of thing,but to me,IT IS AND I MIGHT JUST DIE OKAY??!but lucky,everything is fine just some cramps.
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9:24 PM
Friday, October 5, 2007
sigh...so sleepy and bored but going china on 10 nov to 18 nov.YAY!more shopping and more on studying chinese.omg,it will be winter time,i am ssoo excited.
I wish I could just disappear from here.no one ever talks to me,yet I try and try,i dont want to just let him be on his own like this,I need him too,I need him so much .BUT WHY?why cant things turn out the way I want them to be,WHY?I am so despo at times,heh.sound so fake like a comic book.
I will forget you
even if I dont want to and I will live to find my reason for my existence.
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3:05 PM
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
I had to stay back after school for literature and Dance Programme test.
~failed Literature so kinda have to revise with Ms Goh.
~zero knowledge on the dance test
Got a new abit of name which is Dark-Knight,hee-
Quite nice lah,quite like it.
Yet my tear drop again,I lost myself on the way up here,should I question every move I make?
I feel so sad and despo again.
Is it my body or my heart that is slowly wasting away?Pls help me,anyone,give me some strength.I cant stand on my own two feet,unable to stand,weak as I am.
Fishie,I am forgetting you forever..
I cant keep lying to myself ..
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9:11 PM
Monday, October 1, 2007
Now have a tough situation here..
next sunday,have to bring my running shoes to run with coach and some other swimming mates before we swim..sigh.
Hee-now for GD NEWS!Got MORE WATER BABIES from anisah.They grew so fast,I feel so proud as a mother,seeing my sons and daughters growing up so fast.(sniff)Haha.
ANOTHER GD NEWS!I passed for both chinese oral and listening compre,whoo yoo!Got 27 over 40 and 16 over 20 (not that gd to you all but very gd to me),I even won Richelle,the 1st class smart brain girl.So hapi.Now for other subjects,I really have to work hard,I want to stay in this class cause I really love to be in this class,together with Fishie,this is my goal!!!
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9:18 PM
Friday, September 28, 2007
I have english oral,ms lindy goh as my tester.Nowadays I am getting more and more lifeless.And sad too.I am starting to lose my touch for Fishie.I am not liking him anymore as my heart seems..
I love you
I hate you
Yet it is so hard to just forget you
cause you are so important to me
that you became part of me
without you by my side
I felt so lonely
so desperate to see you again
My heart loves you
yet my body hates you
what am I to do
I feel so lonely,I thought i could be strong yet without you,I just couldnt survive..
who would understand such feeling and be by my side to listen to me cry?
I dont know what to do anymore..
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5:44 PM
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Is it my body or my soul that is slowly wasting away?
I seemed to be getting sadder and lifeless nowadays,mom gets upset with me even if I am already trying to work hard like today,Joel called me and asked me whether tomorrow have geography test,I did not know a thing about it and mom immediately thinks that I did not pay attention in class so she say she is upset with me.
But its okay,I have heard it so many times that I kinda got used to it,I just got sad and cry that time .Who would bother when I cried?WHo would be there for me and listen to me woes?Noone.
It sound so sad yet it is the truth of a SiMpLe girl's life>me.Feel so lifeless that I have no reasons to say that it is a moodswing.I think my parents only know about 70-75% of me.may I see a Brighter day
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9:09 PM
Monday, September 24, 2007
Getting bored nowadays..
exams are coming thats why.I really hate exams okay?Today I stayed back in school to watch the 'of mice and men'.to prevent me from thinking of the bloodshed stuffs,did drawing and close both eyes and ears.Sinyee kept wanting to knw who Fishie is ..
Now have closer friends like Richelle,seysuan,amanda,amelia,so hapi with my life.Have Fishie to recharge me when I am low on Fuel,so happy.
I am so happy
to meet you in this place
you made me run
you help me to get back to the ground when I fall
You are just like
the fuel that kept me going for years..
Thank you for that
now I will fight for you
as a return gift
from me..
Haha..sound a bit stupid but I created this to thank you guys for giving me what I needed so much.
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9:08 PM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
mm...I am starting to like purple now.
Had swimming lessons today and we only did 10 laps.I swam with Sey suan,Tammy won me since she is like FASTER THAN ME,I am okay,just feel defeated(haha),when you lose,you lose.No one sees my blog now,thanks anyway.
Now I have a second family other than my real family.
~Sey suan(my older sis)
~asei(my papa)
~sin yee(my mei)
~amanda(sey suan husband so is ..no clue what it is called.)
that is all I know for now.
Recently,Fishie is really avoiding me now.He doesnt talk to me like he used to anymore and no longer ever face me again..what am I to do? sin yee asked some of us today..'who would be the last one left on the shelf without a boyfriend?'I think it would be me..I know it sound ssoo like I am trying to action or something but its the truth,feel so heart-broken,yet I wish whoever read this,pls find that 'someone special' and cherish it forever..
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8:58 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
Hard to believe...Today I never go to school cause I have a serious high fever,scoring 38 or 39 degrees,mom got ssoo worried and then in the afternoon then got better.First time I never go school in sec 1,I have always been very healthy.Must have ate a lot of junk food for the past few days,like the curry instant noodles I cooked for home econs lesson.my voice immediately changed from a girl's voice to a guy's voice.
YaY,tomolo can go back to school.dont have to skip Pe lessons,I think.can run except whether I can take it or not lah when I run,haha.soon exans are coming,need to work extra hard to pass chinese and geography.Everyone must be worried why I never go school,alot of explaining to do tomorrow..sigh.
end of post
MaNe
Labels: I am so healthy yet I still fall sick..
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4:24 PM
Monday, September 10, 2007
who would have thought so many people read my blog,now got the news;asei read my blog
and then I wrote so much things about him and people like some,thought him and I dated before???!!!That is soooo not true!what kind of thinking is that??!
I dont know what to do now..
today did dancing and we had to rememeber the steps orelse next time do dont know how.so bored and always on thinking programme,I do things alone.the rest of the group talk to each other.
I am not mad at them just annoyed.
YAY!TOMOLO GOT PE LESSON,CAN LOOSEN UP A BIT AND RELAX!!:)
END OF POST,
MANE
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3:00 PM
Monday, August 20, 2007
I have heard this a few days ago but then decided to post about it now..
~we have swimming lessons on wednesday..(sori,just decided to changed the colour text)
~Then I am wearing something called a swimming suit orange n grey..sigh.
~then some people kept saying that I will confirm go to advanced level..no way am I that gd pls!
~failed geography n chinese..mum n dad a bit upset..
~got 33 upon 40 for math(yay)
~return anisah 2 buck for my naughtyness..
~feel a bit lonely today..
~just noticed that the tone I used with girls and guys are different(ha)
that is the end of the pot,see ya soon:)
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5:06 PM
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
lets talk about yesterday..today is my country birhday for your info.continue with yesterday..
we had a math trail which I was group with ~Nicholas,Alivia,Rebcca,Yasier Afiq and Shawn
we worked well or coopeerate well with each other just some arguments on the way..(we went to west coast park for the math trail)..
it was okay just tired ..runnng all along.then made Yasier my brother,haha!
then went to mc's then saw asei with amanda + gang,together..
then I think I hurt asei 's feelings or something cause he gave me that look that I feared so much..I hate him,I couldnt get close to him.I hate his darn face,that look,that stare,I felt so afraid and I wanted to go away..
sometimes i ask myself why did I live?I am such a brat,a pain in the butt..would my death change the world or it would be worse?I am so afraid,I cant help but to cry and afraid,I just couldnt stand on my own two feet!everyday I would cry,in a dark corner,hoping someone would come and understand me..I wish.Labels: dont bother..it is useless.
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11:28 AM
Monday, August 6, 2007
something that a girl wants:
-hug from her boyfriend
-or kiss too
-a boyfriend
-friends
-shoes(for me,no way am I wanting shoes!)
-bottoms(for me,enough already)
-happiness
-good grades
-bags?!
-get contact with him
-get to know more people
-do sports well(some only)
-boyfriend not to get close to other girls
-flowers from boyfriend like roses or turnip..
-no chores
-NO STRESS!
-BRANDED goods
naturally,that is what a girl wants..I guess.Haha..Labels: what a girl wants
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3:26 PM
Sunday, August 5, 2007
yoohoo!!thanie youie to you,anisah!i have longed to change my image of the blog and today is a not ssoo perfect day..although we did made it to the second round for our match..we lost to some but it is ok..we had done our best:)love you,anisah!
here are some Q before you start,pls do not look below..
pls write down 4 close friends you have and then start.
for me,
1.anisah
2.richelle
3.Zann soh
4.fishie:)
what will you do when 1. gets dumped by her boyfriend?
i would look up with her boyfriend and kick him in the ass!
Is 2. pretty?
pretty,very!brown eyes,big ones,she is perfect!
Is 1. and 2. friends?
erm..they are,just some arguement sometime..
Does 3. ever leaves you sometime?
erm...yes once.no more.we are very close.
why did you put 4. in one of your close friends?
well..I never really talk to him.
Is 1. seeing anyone??
n-no,I guess.It is personal,i guess..
what if 1. likes your boyfriend,what will you do??
when that time comes,then i will give a answer for that.
Do you like 4.?
er..not really.
does 2. pissed you off?
sometimes but its okay
What do you and 1. have in common?
same cca;netball:)
end of post,bye!
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8:44 PM
Saturday, July 28, 2007
I do not really like him,well..maybe is my fault,ok??I did not work hard and got a few subs failed,then he is like a bit like 'he say me,I cannot say him' type of people.I get really upset sometimes over this..like ask me to bring our own cup to the kitchen and not ask the maid to do do all this kind of work,then he himself lefthis own cup on the table,waiting for the maid to take it for him or us.I am really angry,you know.I cannot talk to anyone but to write my thoughts down right here.My mom is stressed so i do not want her to get involed in small matters like this,and quarrel over me..I am so miserable.Dear God,may I see a brighter day..
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9:26 PM
Saturday, July 7, 2007
Today,I had netball..it was raining like mad,luckily my dad is around to send me to school..everywhere was like so wet and we had to wait for the rain to stop to do our passes n all..we played court game with our sec2 seniors..we lost to them in the first-half n got scolded by our coach,major scolding,u might say..then at the second-half,although we lost,we managed to score a goal to 1-2.I was playing the WG since chi-yee did not come so I played in her position..Then anisah said that the coach pointed at me and nodded his head,i was kinda happy when I heard that.I tried my best n succeded!!youhoo!!I am so happy!
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12:11 PM
Monday, June 25, 2007
it wasnt really that exciting but better than staying at home..I am serious,i had my gifts ready for my friends n gave it to them in the morning..when I reached school,i miss them ssoo much,i had a spare gift,i wanted to give it to my crush..but i was nervous then i knw he is like the hottest guy in class so i was really nervous n decided to another person which is also a guy(Iwas very determined to give to a boy..)so i decided to give it to asei nakajima(omg)i gave it to him after class or school ends..i was closely behind him,because i wanted to give it to him,i summoned up my courage n asked him..suddenly,he turned around n almost kissed me(omg)..i was really nervous cause it is my first time giving somthing to a guy.i then said,'can u accept this gift from me as a souveinor?'i think asei was a bit taken aback n he said,'ok.'finally,i have done my job,he is my gd friend after all,that how i like him as.i like him,i like my class too!
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5:31 PM
Friday, June 22, 2007
you knw my coach or my teacher in charge..they wanted us to meet them at 7am at city hall mrt station when the game starts at 12pm.i mean like does that mean we or should i say i need to wake up at like 5.30am in the morning??!this is ssoo nuts,man!as usual,I am playing in the game as a WD.there are many school we are competing with like shuqun.scgs,rgs,bbss n more!i was like dumbfounded.the total matchwill finish at about 7pm,that what the teacher said.omg,what am i do?
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11:18 AM
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
sorry,remember in one of my posts,i said something about the whatever-lon,this is it!!I am really proud to hold that medal in my hand,you knw..i was the swimmer for it n anisah was the runner,we teamed up n won!really happy,it was like a few months ago i think but i am still happy about it,it was something i achieved on my own n by my own abilities!I have to thank my parents for all this.tks,mom n dad too.
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5:29 PM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
hhii...!long time no see,I had ssoo much school holidays assignment,when holidays are closing down soon?!I was ssoo shocked when i realised that i had ssoo much homework left to do,poor me..i still have 4 more things to do or finish before school starts,chill mane..chill..
literature stinks,man!!that is like the worst thing that I can fail my test on that.i like a boy in my class,I have no courage to talk to him.I am wanting to give him a present..but then again,he is the hottest guy so he might already like someone else..but that is alright,if he already has,then I should just..give up..
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10:11 PM
Friday, June 15, 2007
My school holidays are like the worst someone can ever have,instead of having a break for it,I had to do homeworks,revisions n more books.well..we did go on a holiday ok..that wasnt ssoo bad..n then I had holiday assignments?!I mean like what the hell??!still had work?I was ssoo pissed,I miss school ssooo much,have the excitment n fun while at home my grands would be arguing with each other n I had rto face my sister cold behaveior..man,i am sso gonna die in this luckily,holidays are closing down soon,1 more week n I amm ssoo free.must bear for just 1 more week...(can do it..)
sigh..
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5:15 PM
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Iam ssooo proud of myself in winning a gold for myself n for the whatever-lon!!cant be anymore happy for myself!!although it was a few days ago but Iam still happy,I wil always remember this=D
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11:46 AM
Monday, May 28, 2007
I am so irrtated with anisah ,just cause she won a medal for the whatever-lon,she didnt have to push it around,rght?I am so bloody pissed with anisah,she skipped netball training just cause of her being tired n having a slight fever,she can still become so active then for ice-skating she can still come?!then u knw wht reasons she gave..like 'since I have promised u guys so I come..'we also had netball training the same day as our ice-skating day with my friends...so more or less she did not come for netball for that.oooohh..I so gonna..!!!!then the next person I so gonna is..zhikim,my sister..she has been getting on my nerve for past few days n become a nuisance to me.whhy?why?why!!?sooo freaking tired n stress with this stuff!!n-no..must keep my cool,I am mane,must keep my cccccccccooooollll..(cant stand it any longer..!!!)
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12:36 PM
Thursday, May 17, 2007
hi,I have finally thought of a name I like n I have changed my subtitle so that it would be more interesting,I am a darkness girl anyway..Richele said sorry to me n I kinda like forgive her cause everything started with me..I am not going to really stick close with them..That time when richelle told me off,I wanted to slap her or something,thre was this darkness side of me wanted to slap her while the other wanted to cry,I managed to control myself n did not slap her..i am so have to get control overself...
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4:24 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Richelle is soo getting on my nerve,ok..1st,she avoid me n go to anisah,2nd,she is like so into anisah,3rd,she is showing me a black face whenever I am like..mm..talking to her.she tak to people with smiling face while with me,she show a black face.i am so hating her..I dont want to talk to her unless i really have to.let her n anisah get a bit of cosy time together.n guess what be cause of her,I entered this competition which I am swimming.then she said,'u got no confidence n u dont join better what!!'I am so bloody pissed off.I hate her!!i am not going to talk to her
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1:53 PM
Thursday, May 10, 2007
I am so notie angry with richelle again(I know I talk about this like..all the time).She talk with me during msn n only said hi n bye.I wasnt angry about that..she speak like as though she didnt want to talk to me..I feel so pathetic..but still a darkness girl so best to keep my cool n just continue with life..omg..my exams are coming so soon..have to study hard to make my june holidays worth it..no matter if richelle were to leave or something,it not like I can stop her from doing things that she thinks it is rigghtie for her.. mm..I am still thinking about shawn,someone in my tution,someone I like as well..it is just a crush..my friends would only laugh at me if I wre to tell them..they are so not trustable..espically when it comes to love..I do not wish to tell them my sercets anymore..or anyway.I dislike them..I had to tell them one of my deepest sercets just for them to get off my back..I couldnt take it when soma gave me the cold stare when I said bye to her..no choice,have to deal with it anyway..but I am soo not telling them any of my sercets anymore..!!
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6:23 PM
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
I am so irrtated with richelle.she only say hi n bye to me,she n anisah are like lassbies,you know,so gross,make me so darn jealous n angry plus sick to my stomach.urgh..I am so pissed,my friends are all ignoring me..I will just have to deal with all of this..mn.I just dont know what to do anymore..I promised that I would not cry anymore but in the end,I could not control my tears..I was so angry n upset that everyone is abandoning me..everytime I cry..there is another voice..speaking to me fiercely saying 'you baby or something..?!'I am so scared..
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5:54 PM
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
I am really darn upset with Richelle.she n i are no longer close to each other,it is like breaking up.all she cares is anisah..anisah all day.even on the msn when I talk to her,we would only say hi n bye,that all.I was really feeling terrible,is this really my life?To others,I might look very happy but I know it inside my heart...even my mom..both of us are not so close anymore..now she cares for my sister only..even look at me is difficult..she would usually be found engrossing her face in that book of hers..the only time she would look at me is when she has something bad to tell me.I feel really depressed...noone will care for me even my parents,my dad...he would only shout n acuses me even before I could say anything..even if I did,he would go like this..'you nver tell me,how I knw?'I feel so sad living in this world..I tried my best,but no matter what I do,I would never be accepted by people..living me in a dead end..
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5:54 PM
Monday, May 7, 2007
Richelle is like sooo avoiding me,I talk to her then she dont reply.I am so disapointed in her.so I decided to ignore her then n talk to others...problem started with me or maybe all of us,ok?I feel so stupid..like a fool..now that she got anisah..I dont think she need me anymore.I am struck in this situation,unable to come out of the box,everyday I would only cry..hoping that someone will come to take me away..I could not take all of these,I would cry..cry but i tell myself that I could take all this pain..everyday I would get scolded by my parents,i was afraid..there is a dark side of me..hoping to come out,i..I cant!if it come out,it will hurt people more n I dont want that to happen! I dont that to happen..but I am born in darkmness,bringing pain to people..my life is filled with darkness n everything i do people will hateme n blame me for it..I dont know what to do..?
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6:04 PM
Sunday, May 6, 2007
hi,long time no see!ok...my day wasnt very perfect,today i have swimming n my timing was so darn slow!of course my coach scolded me...what a day ihad...so not happy!richelle is angry 'cause I did not tell the homework that i am supposed to..well,everything started off from me..so I think I should accept the fact that even if she were to hate me for life..I tried to say sorry to her through sms n hope she will understand that I am not someone anyone can pin hope on,I really hope she understand n I really apologised...Labels: I am so sorry..
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2:27 PM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
yesterday,I had my .N.F.test,which was a surprise to me and my class...'cause our physics teach- told us that today,which is yesterday,need to do our .N.F.test..We need to run 2.4km.Then I was like running 6 rounds in the clemeti stadium,not so tiring ..got 4th position but had to retake cause of some people saying they want to retake..my timing was like 14.35 mins .happy but had to retake..sigh..
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5:52 PM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Today,after school,that is...The school I am in now had a talk show about the environment and stuff like dengue,it was really boring...I did not listen much but I still tried hard to pay attention.
My thoughts~I am so starting to dislike my friend,anisah,she was being really rude,acting cool when she is not and even called me an idiot,I am very angry with that,you know.My little adorable friend called "Richelle",she is someone that I can trust my sercets with,but i still I have to keep a lookout on her for cases like betraying me...(I do not belive that she will do it 'cause I trust her.)
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5:27 PM
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
At first,I was happy to join netball because it was something I had never learned before.There was trials for us and I got in,feeling really happy for myself.So I turned up for the first lesson and it was okay(not very tiring)...
But suddenly everyone seemed to dislike me,then one of my friends,told me that i jogged too fast and that is why they dislike me,i was super angry when i heard that,but no choice but to forgive them(sighed...).Life is just full of surprises..(smiles!)
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4:22 PM
Friday, February 16, 2007
Today, I had some Chinese's New Year celebrations in school...But, i also had some lessons before that...Like science,design "n"technology and history.I forgot to bring them all!!So...for science,I got scolded by my teacher...and so next week,as a punishment,Iwill have to spend a 'LOVELY' afternoon with my science teacher after school which is the day when I have my netball training and nowI will have to explain it to my seniors why i am late...As for other stuff,I was safe..(much happier..)
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5:46 PM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
I am now Sec I and I loves to draw cartoons..but I do not want to go art school,can you guess why?
Because...imagine if we are going to learn everything(but with art!)for 4 to 5 years?!But I am not suggesting people who loves art a lot,not to go..I am just telling you my opinions,ok?(worried!!)Labels: My new year
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5:25 PM
erm..I am new in this stuff so i will need more experience in this,need help to start!!!aaaahhhh!!oh help me.
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4:56 PM
sorry,remember in one of my posts,i said something about the whatever-lon,this is it!!I am really proud to hold that medal in my hand,you knw..i was the swimmer for it n anisah was the runner,we teamed up n won!really happy,it was like a few months ago i think but i am still happy about it,it was something i achieved on my own n by my own abilities!I have to thank my parents for all this.tks,mom n dad too.